The Box

The speaker fears losing the love and respect of their children, as well as their family and friends. They are particularly worried about their sister having to go to New York City due to the worsening situation there. As a single parent, they fear misconnections with their children and having distant relationships with them. The speaker also expresses a deep fear of losing their wife, but the thought of physically losing a child is too overwhelming for them to even consider. This fear is kept locked away because it is the most horrible fear they can imagine. The speaker becomes emotional when discussing this fear, as it is something they try not to think about on a daily basis. They appreciate their friend for bringing it up, as it puts things into perspective and makes the other fears seem superficial in comparison. What do you fear losing? The love of my children. I mean, the respect of my children. Yes. My family and friends. I just fear, like, my sister having to go into New York City all the time now since it's gotten bad. But I don't fear myself much. I fear for other people. I fear misconnections with my kids. Being a single dad, raising my kids. And I would fear, of course, losing my wife. That would be a big one. And I, yeah, my kids, you know, having distant relationships with them. They don't live around us. So it's hard to see them a lot. And I think that's about it. Well, physically losing a child is just beyond, I can't even, I can't even probably go there. I can't, no, oh no, you're, okay, that's true. That fear I keep, I have to keep very much where it needs to be. I don't deny it, but I keep it locked up in one of my little boxes, you know. Because that fear is the most horrible fear. I don't think I'd make it through that. So you're right. Oh, I'm getting teared up. I'm getting teared up. Oh no, no, that's such a big fear, I can't even tell you. I didn't even think about it. It's so big that I have to keep that, you know, I can't think about that every day. I'm not a denial person, and I try to be pretty realistic. But it terrifies me. It could terrify me. Thank you for going there. The rest seems very superficial compared to that. Yeah. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.