God's Intervention

The speaker reflects on the way they believe God intervened in their life over the past few years, including meeting their ex-spouse and going through a divorce. They share their commitment to finding the right person and how they felt that meeting their ex-spouse was meant to be. However, they admit that they got caught up in their ego and couldn't fully embrace the relationship. They talk about feeling lost and unsure about their desires and happiness. After going through a period of suffering and trying to figure things out on their own, they eventually decided to take a break and show themselves some self-compassion. They made the right moves and had the support of people who mattered. They acknowledge the timing and significance of meeting certain individuals in their life. Overall, they have an emotional perspective on the situation and find it interesting how everything unfolded. I just want to talk a little bit about the way I feel that God has intervened in my life, just in relation to the last 3 or 4 years, including meeting Lorne and then our divorce. The way I see it is, I remember just in the time leading up to meeting Lorne, it was a real point of change for me. It was probably the first time in my life I just really committed, I just wanted to stop mucking around with women. I just wanted to do the right thing and be authentic and find that girl. It was probably the first time in my life, from my heart, from my authentic self, I just really wanted that. I'd been knocking on the door of Christianity and involved in that. It was just that time, that real point of change, and I really asked for that. Within a week or two from that, on my very first internet date, I met Lorne. There was just this sense that it was meant to be. There really was. There was just that feeling I carried, even at a spiritual level, that this was it. I think that was God's way of just bringing the perfect person into my life at the perfect time and just saying, Here, have this blessing. The intention was, well not the intention, but the opportunity, however you want to look at it, was there for us to grow into that and have a wonderful life together. Because I followed the path of the ego, I couldn't quite bring myself to transcend into my true self and really enjoy the relationship. I got caught. I got trapped in my ego. Really trapped. Once we got married, just not knowing who I was and what I wanted, it scared me. I had lost myself in a work sense. I didn't know whether I wanted children. I couldn't work out if I was happy. I think God at some point just sort of, I don't know, it was just sort of like it didn't work out. But what's funny is, I've now gone through this path of complete suffering for several months, and then trying to learn in my own will and get my head around it. That was useful. I learned a lot of good things, but didn't quite get there. And then suddenly I just grew into this moment, and I just thought, I decided to see David. He mentioned something that made me think, you know what, I need a break. I need some self-compassion here. I'm so hard on myself. Nobody else is going to say, Chris, you deserve a break. Have some time off. Nobody said that. You've got to love yourself or else no one else will. It was time for some self-compassion. I did it the perfect way. I brought along the people who needed to be brought along, my bosses. And then I just did it and announced it to other people. I didn't seek my parents' approval or friends' approval. I just did it and announced it. And I made the right moves. I spent a week in Perth, which was the right move. And the course was perfect. Rick was from God. He put things to me that made it all come together. And, yeah, it's kind of like, if you do the right things, it comes. It's just interesting how it all worked with Rick and with Lorne and the timing. And, yeah, it's just an emotional perspective I have on that whole situation. It was a bit like Erica bringing me to Riverview. Then you had Lorne come along and Rick. It's interesting how it all worked.