Q2-19890406-Larry_Rosenberg-UNK-anapanasati_full_awareness_of_breath_series_tape_8-33811 Leandra Tej

Talk: 19890406-Larry_Rosenberg-UNK-anapanasati_full_awareness_of_breath_series_tape_8-33811 Leandra Tejedor Start_time: 00:24:01 Display_question: I've been doing a lot of tracking, and I find that even though I feel sensations when I think about my ear, I'm not quite sure where it is. Keyword_search: tracking, sensation, body scan, attention, samadhi, mindfulness, wisdom, disorientation Question_content: Questioner: I've been doing a lot of tracking, and I find that even though I feel sensations, maybe in my ear, when I think about my ear, I'm not quite sure where it is. Sometimes it's orientated to where the different parts of the body are. Larry: But you're following the breath? Questioner: But remember, I wasn't here last week. Remember when you did the guided… Larry: Okay. I'm using tracking mainly… Questioner: Just following breath. Larry: Just following… Questioner: Yeah. I've been doing a lot of what we did two weeks ago, and I find… Larry: Sweeping. We call that or spotty scan. Okay. Questioner: And I find that there are times where I get disoriented to where things are. Larry: Doesn't matter. Questioner: I know, but it's a little unsettling when you all of a sudden feel something in your ear and you are not quite sure where your ear is and it snaps you, kind of out of it. Larry: Yes. Then what you can do is just a moment's attention to this feeling of disorientation. Sometimes you can hear a truck, and it feels like it's part of your mind. I mean, where do I end, and the truck begins? Is it true that we're all one? So that I understand the feeling of disorientation, and stranger things will happen. But we're not trying… the fidelity to it in terms of, let's say, a physiologist, or someone expert in anatomy is not… we don't need that. Basically, these are all exercises in developing mindfulness, developing samadhi, mindfulness, and eventually wisdom. So that wherever you're feeling what you're calling in quotes, ear. Even if you feel the ear out in left field, okay. So that's where you feel it. The key thing is not ear, or throat, or even breath, finally. It's just what's there. Breath is just a word, and you'll see, it's just a bunch of particles, that there really is no in breath, or outbreath. Break_line: I mean, it's a convenient linguistic agreement, that we need, so we can talk to each other. But as things get more quiet, that's all there are, these pulsations. And then again, there is a breath. But you can't stop your mind from getting worried, that it doesn't know where it is. And so, let's say you're doing that sweeping, or body scan, working down through the body, for those of you who are not here, breathing in, and breathing out every step along the way, and something gets thrown up. Break_line: For example, okay, it could be just what happened to you. Then while you're breathing in and breathing out, suddenly the mind is chattering about disorientation. So, you turn to it. You hear it. Now, in subsequent contemplations, we'll be examining the mind directly. But for right now, we don't want to spend a lot of time on it. But if you didn't, then it's going to throw you off, because fear, et cetera, will hamper your ability to move down through. So, it's best to give it some attention. Okay. Hear it out for a few moments, but it doesn't matter that you don't know where you are. End_time: 00:27:15