Mix of Olivia Rodrigo

I'm so insecure, I think that I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news of who likes me and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might quit my job suddenly, right? And they'd all be so disappointed, cause who am I if not exploited? And I'm so sick of seventeen, where's my fucking teenage dream? If someone tells me one more time, enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry And I don't stick up for myself, I'm anxious and nothing can help And I wish I'd done this before, and I wish people liked me more I wish it would come up dead, since I couldn't think ahead Of the lessons we have shared These days are the golden years, but I wish I could disappear Here's a place that's supposed to be a good It's brutal out here I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately I'm a nervous wreck Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart And I can't even tell a lie I wish it would come up dead, since I couldn't think ahead Of the lessons we have shared These days are the golden years, but I wish I could disappear Here's a place that's supposed to be a good It's brutal out here I wish it would come up dead, since I couldn't think ahead Of the lessons we have shared These days are the golden years, but I wish I could disappear Here's a place that's supposed to be a good And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately I'm a nervous wreck Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I can't even tell a lie I wish it would come up dead, since I couldn't think ahead Of the lessons we have shared I have nowhere to start From guilty eyes and little white lies Yeah, I played dumb, but I always knew That you'd talk to her, maybe Did even worse, I kept quiet so I could keep you And ain't it funny How you ran ahead The second that we called it quits Ain't it funny How you said you were friends Now it sure as hell don't look like You betrayed me And I know that you'll never feel sorry But the way I heard, yeah, you'd talk to her When we were together Loved you with your words But that didn't matter It took you two weeks To go off and date her Guess you didn't cheat And you're still a traitor Now you bring her around Just to shut me down Show her off like she's a new trophy And I know if you were true There's no damn way that you Could fall in love with somebody that quickly Ain't it funny All the twisted games All the questions you used to avoid Ain't it funny Remember I brought her up And you told me I was paranoid You betrayed me And I know that you'll never feel sorry But the way I heard, yeah, you'd talk to her When we were together Loved you with your words But that didn't matter It took you two weeks To go off and date her Guess you didn't cheat And you're still a traitor Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah I wish you had thought this through Before I went and fell in love with you Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah When you're sleeping in the bed with me Don't you dare forget about the way you betrayed me Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry But the way I heard, yeah, you'd talk to her When we were together You gave me your word But that didn't matter It took you two weeks To go off and date her Guess you didn't cheat But you're still, you're still a traitor Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Yeah, you're still a traitor I got my driver's license last week Just like we always talked about Cause you were so excited for me To finally drive up to your house But the day I drove through the suburbs Crying cause you weren't around And you're probably with that one girl Who always made me doubt She's so much older than me She's everything I'm insecure about Yet the day I drove through the suburbs How could I ever love someone else? And I know you ain't perfect But I've never felt this way for no one And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay Now that I'm gone Guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me You said forever Now I drive alone past your street And all my friends are tired Of hearing how much I miss you But I kinda feel sorry for them Cause they'll never know you the way that I do Yet the day I drove through the suburbs Pictured I was driving home to you And I know you ain't perfect But I've never felt this way for no one And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay Now that I'm gone Guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me You said forever Now I drive alone past your street Wait, let's stop here I still see your face In the white cars running down Can't drive past the places We used to go to Cause I still thought you loved me I thought we crossed I still hear your voice In the traffic we're laughing Over all the noise I don't know where I'm going But I still fucking love your face And I know you ain't perfect But I've never felt this way for no one And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay Now that I'm gone Guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me Cause you said forever Now I drive alone past your street Called you on the phone today Just to ask you how you were All I did was speak normally Somehow I still struck a nerve You got me fucked up in the head, boy Never doubted myself so much Like I'm a pretty, I'm a fun boy I hate that I give you power over that kind of stuff Cause it's always one step forward and three steps back I'm the love of your life until I make you mad It's always one step forward and three steps back Now you love me, want me, hate me But boy, I don't understand No, I don't understand Maybe in some masochistic way I could have found it all exciting Like, which lover will I get today? Will you walk me to the door, send me home crying? It's one step forward and three steps back I'm the love of your life until I make you mad It's always one step forward and three steps back Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I don't understand No, it's back and forth Did I say something wrong? It's back and forth Going over everything I said It's back and forth Did I do something wrong? It's back and forth Maybe this is all your fault instead It's one step forward and three steps back And I'd leave you, but the rollercoaster's all I've ever had Yeah, it's one step forward and three steps back Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I don't understand No, I don't understand Car rides, the Malibu Strawberry ice cream One spoon for two And trading jackets Laughing about how small it looks on you Watching reruns of Glee Being annoying Singing in harmony I bet she's bragging To all her friends saying you're so unique So when you're gonna tell her That we did that too She thinks it's special But it's all reused That was our place, our friend The first time and the jokes you told her When she's with you Do you get déjà vu when she's with you? Do you get déjà vu? Do you get déjà vu? When you call her When you say my name I see you pining I can understand the same I'm not an actress I hate to think that I wasn't just your type I bet she knows Billy Joel Cause you played her up down low But singing it together I bet you even tell her how you love her In between the chords and the verse So when you're gonna tell her That we did that too She thinks it's special But it's all reused That was the show we talked about Played you the song she's singing now When she's with you Do you get déjà vu when she's with you? Do you get déjà vu? Do you get déjà vu? You got jelly ice cream in the living room Don't act like we didn't do that to you You're trading jackets like we used to do Everything is all reused Play her piano but she doesn't know That I was the one who taught you Billy Joel I'm a different girl now but there's nothing new I know you get déjà vu I know you get déjà vu I know you get déjà vu I woke up for you, I guess you moved on really easily You found a new girl and it only took a couple weeks Remember when you said that you wanted to give me the world? I woke up for you, I guess that you've been working on yourself I guess the therapist I found for you should really help Now you could be a better man for your brand new girl I woke up for you, you're really happy and healthy You know I mean, if you ever cared to ask Good for you, you're doing great up here without me Baby, go to her, she likes what you like I'm back home, I wake up every night Crying on the floor of my bedroom You're so infected, I really don't care I get good for you I get good for you I wake up for you, I guess you're getting everything you want You got a new car and your career's really taking off Like it never even happened, baby, what the fuck is up with that? I get good for you, it's like you've never even met me Remember when you swore to God I was the only person who ever got you? Well, screw that, then screw you You will never have to hide the way you know that I do Good for you, you're really happy and healthy You know I mean, if you ever cared to ask Good for you, you're doing great up here without me Baby, go to her, she likes what you like I'm back home, I wake up every night Crying on the floor of my bedroom You're so infected, I really don't care I get good for you I get good for you Maybe I'm too emotional Like a disease, like a wound in the soul Maybe I'm too emotional Maybe you never cared at all Maybe I'm too emotional Like a disease, like a wound in the soul Maybe I'm too emotional Maybe you never cared at all Good for you, you're really happy and healthy You know I mean, if you ever cared to ask Good for you, you're doing great up here without me Baby, go to her, she likes what you like I'm back home, I wake up every night Crying on the floor of my bedroom You're so infected, I really don't care I get good for you Good for you, I guess you mean that really easily I wore makeup when we dated Cause I thought you'd like me more If I looked like the other prom queens I know that you loved before Tried so hard to be everything that you liked Just for you to say You're not the compliment type And I know how you took your coffee And your favorite songs by heart I read all of your self-help books So you'd think that I was smart Stupid, emotional, obsessive Little me I knew from the start This is exactly how you'd leave You found someone more exciting The next second you were gone And you left me there crying And wondering what I did wrong And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you All I ever wanted was to be enough for you And maybe I'm just not as interesting As the girls you had before But God, you couldn't have cared less About someone who loved you more I'd say you broke my heart But you broke much more than that Now I don't want your sympathy I just want myself back Before you found someone more exciting The next second you were gone And you left me there crying And wondering what I did wrong And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough Don't you think I loved you too much To be used and discarded Don't you think I loved you too much To think I deserve nothing But don't tell me you're sorry for it Feel sorry for yourself Cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else And they'll think that I am so exciting And I'll be the one who's crying Yeah, you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true You say I'm never satisfied But that's not me, it's you Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough But I don't think anything could ever be enough For you Enough for you No, nothing's enough for you We broke up a month ago You're friends are mine, you know I know you've moved on, found someone new One more girl who brings out the better in you And I thought my heart was detached From all the sunlight of our past But she's so sweet, she's so pretty Does she mean you forgot about me? Oh, I hope you're happy But not like how you were with me I'm selfish, I know, can't let you go The fight is done, great, but don't find no one better I hope you're happy, but don't be happier And do you tell her she's the most beautiful girl you've ever seen And eternal love, bullshit, you know you'll never mean Remember when I believed, you meant it when you said it first to me So now I'm begging her part I'm cutting her down to make you miss my wretched heart But she's beautiful, she looks kind She probably gives you butterflies I hope you're happy But not like how you were with me I'm selfish, I know, can't let you go The fight is done, great, but don't find no one better I hope you're happy I wish you all the best, really Say you love her, baby, just not like you love me And think of me finally when your hands are on her I hope you're happy, but don't be happier I hope you're happy Just not like how you were with me I'm selfish, I know, can't let you go The fight is done, great, but don't find no one better I hope you're happy, but don't be happier I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room Cause all I see are girls too good to be true With paper white teeth and perfect bodies Wish I didn't care, I know that beauty's not my luck But it feels like that weight is on my back And I can't let it go Comparison is killing me slowly I think I think too much about kids who don't know me I'm so sick of myself, rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else, eternity, eternity Started following me Started following me I see everyone getting all the things I want I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not Just cool vintage clothes and vacation photos, I can't stand it Oh God, I sound crazy, that women is not my life I know it's true, but I can't help getting caught Up in a local club comparison It's killing me slowly I think I think too much about kids who don't know me I'm so sick of myself, rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else, eternity, eternity Are you dressed so cool, you ride every night And you got a good car, yeah, you're living the life You're the prettiest man, it's really fun for sure I wanna be too bad, and I don't even know you All I see, what I should be Heavier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy All I see, what I should be I don't care, all I care, jealousy, jealousy The club comparison is killing me slowly I think I think too much about kids who don't know me I'm so sick of myself, rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else, jealousy, jealousy I'm so sick of myself, rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else, jealousy, jealousy Know that I love you so bad I let you treat me like that I was your willing accomplice, honey And I watched as you fled the scene And died as you buried me One heart broke, four hands bloody The things I did, just so I could call you mine The things you did, well I hope I was your favorite crime You used me as an alibi I crossed my heart as you crossed the line And I defended you, you're all my friend And now every time the siren sounds I wonder if you're around Cause you know that I'd do it all again All the things I did, just so I could call you mine The things you did, well I hope I was your favorite crime But it's sweet to think about the damage that we do Cause I was going down but I was doing it with you Yeah, everything was broken, all the trouble that we made But I say that I hate you with a smile on my face Oh, look what we became All the things I did, just so I could call you mine All the things you did, well I hope I was your favorite crime Your favorite crime Your favorite crime Cause baby you were mine I knew a boy once when I was small A towhead blonde with eyes as soft He played the drum in the marching band His parents cared more about the Bible Than being good or bad And he was a good boy He was a good boy He was a good boy He was a good boy He cared more about the Bible Than being good to their own child He wore long sleeves cause of his dad And sometimes we fell out with a touch Or we took his idea and made a movie of us Don't know if I'll see you again someday But if you're out there I hope that you're okay Little school friend grew up alone She raised her brothers on her own Her parents hated who she was She couldn't wait to go to college She was tired cause she was brought into a world Where family was merely blood She know how proud I am she was created With the courage to unlearn all of their hatred They don't talk much but I just gotta say I miss you I hope that you're okay I just know better Through the holes in my body I'll leave with nothing to remember Nothing's as good as it seems When the clouds are piling up And mumps and creaks fill your house And every door becomes a maze Well I hope you know how proud I am you were created With the courage to unlearn all of their hatred But God I hope that you're happier today Cause I love you And I hope that you're okay I hope that you're okay I just know better Through the holes in my body I'll leave 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