Talk it out - Episode 1 (part 2)

The speaker discusses their desire to finish a painting and take photography classes. They express their love for photography and the potential to make money from it. They also discuss the pressure to sell their artwork and the dream of having their photos printed and sold at a store like Hobby Lobby. They mention the importance of balance in various aspects of their life, such as exercise and work. They talk about their gym membership and the need to establish a routine. The speaker reflects on their tendency to be negative and the need to have a more balanced perspective. They discuss the challenges of running their own business and the constant flow of ideas they have. They mention the importance of being a supportive partner and their commitment to being a mother. They express the struggle of balancing their personal goals with their responsibilities as a parent. They conclude by discussing the benefits and challenges of homeschooling their children. But basically I need to finish that painting, I need to, I want to, I'm actually going to sign myself up for some classes on my camera just to learn how to use that specific camera. I'm not trying to make money off taking photos, I genuinely love taking photos. But it's also a perk that we have, we don't need it to make money, it's just a perk if it makes more money. You know what I mean? Right. Exactly. It's great. But it's something. But also, I don't want there to be pressure on stuff. Right. You know what I mean? Yeah. I felt like I was good at the logos. And if you happen to sell one for whatever, or never sell one, who cares? Maybe I'll sell one like a cool landscape and Hobby Lobby will want to buy it and make it into a print. That's like my dream. If I walk into Hobby Lobby and one of my photos is a print, that would be so cool. I mean if it sells at Hobby Lobby. People do it all the time. I know, that's what I mean. But if you just put it up in Hobby Lobby for sale. And nobody buys it. And it doesn't sell. Then you crushed yourself again. That's so negative. Somebody will buy it. I agree. I'll go buy it. Just pretend. Okay. Nobody buys it. It's too late. I'll go buy it. Gift it to me. No. No. Gift it. Somebody's going to be like, don't tell her. Don't tell her I bought this. Just say you bought it. You can tell she bought it. And she'll be like, oh my gosh, that's my picture. Wow. I agree. I think balance is, in my own life, I agree that just based on your word, it's definitely not my word. I don't really have a word. I don't really know. To be honest, I haven't really even thought about it. She does ask us this every year. Allie does. Most years I do think about it. I don't know why. I just haven't thought about it this year. The biggest phrase, I don't know that the word was, I guess, given to me, but it has been in my brain a lot, is just take a risk. Yeah. Well, but sometimes God talks to you like that. Yeah. That's how he usually talks to me. He'll keep putting a word or a phrase. And somehow I keep thinking about it. Or even somebody else will say it, even though they're not saying it in the same context as what I'm thinking of it as. Then I'm like, okay, I'm listening. Yeah. But on your balance one, I agree. Because I do the same thing. Mine is like with working out, with food, with work, with all sorts of stuff. Oh, yeah. Like being a general, I'll diet like a Nazi for two weeks. And then I'll just literally eat everything for a week. Yeah. And I go one extreme or the other. Yeah. I need to get a groove. I need a routine. Me too. I need a balanced routine of this is what I'm doing every day. I need to stop being. I got that gym membership. I need to stop being a turd about getting up. Yeah. I just need to get up. Yeah. I got that gym membership. And I haven't been one. I know. I mean, I've only had it for like two weeks now, I guess. I mean, I do use my treadmill. For three weeks. But just walking alone is not going to do it. I haven't been one. I know. But. We got to be better. Maybe even if we don't do it, like you go to the gym and I do it here. But what if we wake up at the same time and say, okay, you go to your workout and I'll go do mine. Yes. And that way we're like, okay, get up, you know. The problem with that is. We're both really bad at that. We are. And it's fine. But I'm okay getting up at five in the morning. Oh, no. Don't be ridiculous. And you're not. Why does that have to be at five? It doesn't. But if we're going to do it before the kids wake up. Okay. 630. 630. Crosby's in our bed every day by 7 a.m. But he stays asleep until nine o'clock. That's true. That's true. Mom and dad's bed is the coziest. That's true. That's true. That's true. I feel like I'll push it to 645. I feel like, what am I going to do? An hour workout? Let's be real. No. Never. Mine was like an hour. 30 to 45 minutes max. Yeah. For me. And then I'm going to be bored. I just am like, I can't do this. Like, my attention span is just not there. Well. Maybe I can work up to it. It's also pointed at the TV. So you can go watch a show. And that makes it go by faster. That's true. Yeah. But I agree. I think everybody, if everybody were to look at their lives, not everybody, obviously. You know what I mean? Like, there's obviously like probably some uber wealthy people who are just super disciplined and balanced in their lives. But I think the majority of people, if they looked at their lives, they could. Balance is a hard thing for people to navigate. It is. And I really would like to write some things down that like could help me personally be more balanced. Yeah. Like what? Writing them down. Like write them down fully right now. Oh, you mean like goals and stuff. Yeah. Like the stuff we talked about. You just mean like write it down. Yeah. For me. And I might even print it out and like make it cute and hang it on the mirror or something. I mean. Like your declaration. Yeah. Put it right next to it. Do you actually say those? I do look at them every day. You look at them every day? Yeah. I mean, I don't verbally. I'm terrible about verbally saying things. Except, I mean, I'm good at saying the negatives. Where's that power? I know. And that's something I have to work on, Ronnie. You need to have better balance about your perspective about yourself. Yes. That is true. Yeah. I agree. We both. I have gotten a little bit better about the negativity sometimes. You're way better about it than I am. But I definitely freak out more than you do. That is true. I definitely freak out more. We flip-flopped in that area. I used to get so frustrated. Yeah. And I was the level-headed one. Yeah. And now, I'm just like, it's like all hug and stuff. I'm losing patience. I know. I'm getting older. I'm not gaining patience. I know. I've noticed. I just can't handle something. I know. Where I'm like, what's going on? We're freaking out over nothing. Yeah. What's happening? Like, is this that big of a problem in our life? I'm purposely being coy about it. I know. You know what I mean? So, I don't want to air all the dirty laundry on episode one. But. Exactly. I agree. But now, back to take a risk and stuff like that. I think that's. It's here, baby. I think it's a little bit of. I think a lot of it is business-wise because I have a lot of stuff on the horizon. It's business, but because we own our own company, it is personal, too. Yeah. So. There's just a lot of. And I'm down. Let's go. It's just hard to turn it off. Yeah. It's just what I think about all the time. And it's not that it's the most important thing. It's just that it kind of feeds everything else, at least. Right. It's not that it's the most important because I could always just. If the company crashed tomorrow, I'll just find a new job. Yeah. We'll just figure it out. But it's one of those things where it's also a curse of my head where I'm the dreamer. Yeah. In the relationship. And I'm the supporter. Yeah. Cheerleader. So I've got 18 ideas in my head. It's just a matter of implementing. Yeah. 18 ideas. Yeah. They're either extremely expensive or it's not something I can do by myself. Or it's about finding good help. It's about finding lots of stuff. Yeah. So. I don't know. I don't know. You've always been a supporter, though. Yeah. You've always been. I've done lots of options in my life. Yeah. I've tried lots of things. Either I get bored or. You're so confident. I realize this is not going to be a career thing. Mm-hmm. You're so motivated and confident. Yeah. You know you can get it done if you want. You're so driven. Yeah. I don't worry about that. And I think. I'll go start as a sacker tomorrow at United. I mean I'll be front end manager by the end of the year. I know. I'm not worried about that. You have that drive and personality. Yeah. Whereas like I come up with an idea and it actually might be a pretty good idea. Yeah. But if you think about January. But I. April until you. It's April before you've figured out a plan to do anything. I know but it's because I'm not confident in myself with it. I know. Because I have a greater commitment right now and that is being a mom. Yeah. And for me I struggle with wanting to do anything that interferes with that. Because that's my number one outside of you obviously. But you and I's relationship comes easy. So I don't really worry too much about it. And I think we feed each other pretty well. For sure. And so. You complement each other well. Yeah. So I'm not. I don't worry about that because we naturally have each other's back with everything I think. Yeah. And so I'm really just focusing on like it takes a lot for me to be like hey if this is going to take away from the kids like I'm out. For sure. I don't want to do it. If something's going to take my time away from them like one of my silly ideas then I'm probably not going to follow through on it. Yeah. But I think you put too many coins in that basket of obviously the kids are top priority as they should be in our lives. You know what I mean? Yeah. But I'd say top priority. They're top earthly priority. Well. For sure. Because I homeschool. Because they're with me 24-7 and I just want to make sure I'm doing what I'm supposed to do for them. I don't want them to lack in an area because I didn't send them to school. So I feel like there's a lot of pressure with that. For sure. For sure. But we do lots of stuff to compensate for that. The kids do lots of stuff. Yeah. To compensate for the things that they would I guess so-called be missing out on. I don't think that's necessarily true. I mean I've done both. I've done homeschool and went to school and there's a lot of pros and a lot of negatives about both. There's... I didn't love being homeschooled but looking back on it as a 34-year-old and especially seeing what the world is now you can... I'm like I can appreciate being homeschooled. Yeah. It's definitely not easy on the moms. I can... Yeah. Like when I watch y'all do homeschool at the table and stuff I'm like... That's when I lose my mind. Y'all do it for 15 minutes and I'm like how are you still counting on your fingers? Yeah. What are you doing? How are you not reading yet? That's one of those things I try not to think to you. I don't want people to feel dumb. Well and it's hard because the things that I'm like this is like basic information. Like how do they not get this? And I'm like oh because I'm 33 and I know this. Oh because she's 7. Yeah she's a big... Or 10. She's a little baby. Yeah because she has to learn like everybody else does. Exactly. See that's where like the day-to-day stuff like I'm pretty like chill blah blah blah whatever but like the minute somebody just doesn't understand the concept in school I'm like listen we need to take a break because I'm like I'm about to freak out. And you know I don't want to go there because I'm trying to work on that. I'll be in my room. So I'm going to go in here for a minute. Watch PAW Patrol. I'll see you in a little while. No not PAW Patrol. Not PAW Patrol. Anything but PAW Patrol. Yeah I get it. It's our newest. It's our newest book. I needed to find a reason to ban PAW Patrol and my mother-in-law found it for me so yay here we go banning PAW Patrol. I'm in. You're in because you don't like PAW Patrol. It's annoying. All they talk about. I could find a reason to ban just about everything. Well let's do it. Yeah. No more TV. Throw the TVs out. Seriously. Throw the TVs. That we just bought. In the street. We're going to smash them. Set them in the dumpster and set them on fire. But I did think that you know the balance also goes along with the homeschool thing like. Excuse me I have baby on. But even that it's like there's just so many things like again like I said I need to write it on paper for myself and print it out all cute and stuff so I'll look at it every day. For sure print it out all cute. Yeah. I mean I'm not judging. I got lots of stuff that I have just because. Well it's like you hear a story in the Bible and then you do this Bible study and then like you do a Bible study and you learn so much from it. But then as time goes on it fades out and you don't remember it. Why I need it to stick in my brain in the day to day. So if I print it out cute and put it on the mirror it's a constant reminder for me to remember it and to actually implement it in my life. And I think honestly that's what I should do is with Bible studies like things that I want to remember. Take the time to print it out. Put it up on your mirror until you actually know it and you're like I've changed. I've changed a habit or I've changed a thought process. And then what you move on to the next one. And then you move on to the next one. What do you mean like print them out of a Bible study is that what you're talking about? Well like I was just using that as an example because. Like an excerpt of a Bible study. Well it's like or even a sermon. Oh okay. Like where you're like dang that was good. And then you say that and you read it and then two weeks later you can't even recall it. Oh see I've done that multiple times on the sermon thing. I know. Where I will keep, I'll leave a podcast, a sermon podcast. Our church obviously has recorded podcasts of the sermons or whatever they're doing. Whatever you want to call that I guess. But I've done that multiple times where I'll keep it and I'll listen to it three or four times. And. Yeah. Sometimes it encourages ideas in my head that maybe it shouldn't. But most of the time it does. You know what I mean? Like sometimes I'll think I'm hearing something and then obviously after a little while after a while I'm like well it was a bad idea. That's another podcast in and of itself. I just think that I cannot be the only one who is like dang that was good. I need to remember that. And then you don't write it down. You don't do anything. And you forget it. And you're not going to go thumb through your notes every single day on every single idea. But what if it's like you hear this. If you took notes. Yeah. But like say you took notes. Say you were intentional on taking notes. Yeah. And you starred something or whatever. And then maybe like after like you know four weeks of sermons or whatever you're doing. Put them on a. Print them out and hang them on your mirror. And then practice every day looking at them in the mirror and reading them out loud until you change the behavior you're wanting to change. Or. Then you move on to the next. And then once it's learned and it's a new thought process that you've developed in your brain. Like once you actually change that. Yes. And implement it in your life. Then move on to the next thing. What do they say it takes like 23 days to. Start a new habit. Start a new habit. Yeah. To break a habit. Not to start a new habit. Oh. Start a new habit. The easy one right. If I go smoke cigarettes for four days I might get addicted to nicotine. You know what I mean. I just. I think it's 21 days to break a habit. To break a bad habit. I'm not always saying to stop something bad. It could mean that too. Oh. Okay. But I'm also meaning like to implement a new good thing. Yeah. In your life. I'm protecting all the bad stuff out of the way. I'm like oh you do too. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Put three habits together. We'll see it. I mean I definitely. I'm the only one with bad habits. Have habits. Bad habits. A.K.A. Popcorn. I think I deserve it every single night. That's such a. I know that sounds like a big deal in your head. But when other people hear that your problem is popcorn. Yeah. But. Everybody else is rolling their eyes. I'm eating it at like 10 o'clock at night. Yeah. But it's also popcorn. I know. But it's not good for you to eat that late. It's popped corn. I know. But. Yeah. I don't know. I don't know. But. You know. Food for thought. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. 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