Episode 1- Sean Davis

The person being interviewed talks about their childhood, being raised in a Christian household by a single mother, and not knowing their father. They mention moving back and forth between their mother and grandparents' house and feeling some acceptance and abandonment issues. They discuss being disciplined strictly and acting out in school for attention. They also mention not knowing their heritage and having identity issues. They talk about their weight loss journey, being the heaviest in their family, and experiencing pressure to get skinny. They mention gaining a significant amount of weight in college but then deciding to lose it in a healthy way. They also discuss their fitness goals and their interest in a career in life coaching or weight loss coaching due to their own journey. They mention the impact of childhood on their eating habits and mindset. So we're going to start off with like a very basic question of like, so what was your childhood like? Describe that. Like how did, what was your upbringing like? How were you taught to be Sean? So I was raised in a Christian household. My mom was single, my dad wasn't in the picture. I never knew my dad. I jumped back and forth in between being raised by my mom and my grandparents. I lived at my mom's for like a year or two at a time, and then I would switch over to my grandparents' house. And it was sort of like a back and forth, like wherever was better, I kind of lived there at the time. So like if it got worse with my grandparents, I would jump back to my mom's. So I kind of had like some acceptance or like abandonment issues because of it. But since I was raised so strictly, like I was disciplined very hard. I tended to act out more in school, and like I guess it was about like attention disorders because of it. So like I would act out for attention, and like in school, so I would get in trouble a lot for being like a class clown. I had bad grades in school because of it, until college. College is when I started like straightening out my grades and everything like that. But my mom was more physical with the discipline, and my grandparents were more like I'm taking away things, kind of the discipline. So like I would just jump back and forth in between that. Never had a relationship with my dad. Never knew my dad. When I was 22, I found out that he died when I was 16 years old. My mom, on my mom's side, they're all white, so I was raised by a white household, and my dad's full Dominican. So I never really got to learn my heritage like that, or like anything that has to do with being Spanish. So I kind of had like identity issues, because I never really knew what I was. Yeah. That's crazy. I feel like I kind of relate to that, like having your own heritage, and you just like are getting uncomfortable with what's going on, and you have multiple places to go to, I feel like that feels really easy to do, and like a habit that tends to like fall into whenever at least anything goes. So like I developed this thing where like I run away. Like I run away from issues, instead of like facing them sometimes. Now I'm a lot better with facing my issues, and like confronting them, and dealing with my problems, rather than running away, because if you're constantly running away, you're bottling up those issues, you're never dealing with those issues, so they go on forever. Yeah. 100%. If you don't deal with something, it doesn't go away. Right on. So, you said your dad wasn't in the picture as much, so do you and your sister have the same dad? No, we're half. So like, we have different dads. That's what that says. Okay. I mean, good for them, I guess. But one of the things I wanted to ask, because I feel like your weight loss is like a big part of your journey, as a person, like, is your whole family fat? Or like, who's the heaviest? That's a good question. I was always the heaviest. Like, everybody's really skinny. Like, my mom was tiny up until like, like five years ago, and she still is like, considered healthy. Like, she's not overweight. But like, I was always huge, compared to everybody else. I guess I got that from my dad, so. Thank you. Oh my god. Okay, so we're at the Starbucks, because we both work at the Starbs, and we just got brought up in order. Let's read this one. It's Adonis. Venti. Cronhuber. Rubin. Crunch. Frappuccino. Lime cup with mocha. Signature. Balan. Double shot. One Hokusudan. Dolce. Ten pumps of dark cronhuber. Three pumps of white mocha. Have you ever seen an extra caramel drizzle? It's crazy. That's our dad, Tony. He literally just can't help it. Oh my god, imagine. Um, okay. Where were we? Um, yeah, that's probably uncomfortable. Definitely being really fat. Did your family pressure you to get skinny? Yeah, they fed me more food. Oh, really? Yeah, they just, like, encouraged it. Nobody ever told me, like, I was fat. They'd just be, like, encouraging me to eat. Like, they would always make me food that was unhealthy. Oh, Tony, you want McDonald's? Yeah, yeah, I want McDonald's. Like, I would always get food. Like, mind you, I was always, like, chubby. I was never, like, super, super morbidly obese until I got to college, and I got in a relationship. And I was sitting on my ass too much. And that's how I got 335 pounds. Damn. Okay, I was going to ask you, what was, like, your heaviest weight, and when did you realize, like, this was a problem? So, I went from 275, or 265. Yeah, I went from 265 to 335 pounds within, like, a year. So, like, going into college, I was 18 years old. How old were you? No, I mean, like, I know you're 22. Um, but how do you bring on a weight in a year? Um, college. Bring on your own, eating whatever you want. I guess so. I do eat whatever I want. I went out to eat every single day for all three meals, and I was working at Wawa, so, like, I had all-you-can-eat Wawa. I feel like there's nothing, like, in your food anymore when you eat out. It's like, there's nothing in your food, period, when you eat out. It's, like, good for you. And then if you make those same exact meals at home, like, you're going to not gain any weight. But if you eat it from, like, Wawa, you're going to gain, like, 10 pounds in a month. Right. So, like, I was only 335 for, like, a brief moment. So, like, I gained all that weight, and then instantly I looked at myself, and was like, alright, nah, this ain't becoming a habit, and I don't want my body to be like this for a long time, because that's how you get loose skin. Like, if you, like, so that got a little bit, like, feel me? Yeah. It's nothing compared to people that are 335 for, like, more than 5 years, and they lose it. I lost 135 pounds, and I was unfit. So I probably lost, like, 170 pounds in just fat. And I did it the healthy way. Like, when I started losing weight, I wasn't, I didn't do any type of drugs. I was smoking weed and drinking a little bit, but my strictly diet and just trying to work out was my method of losing weight. And I didn't do, like, a crazy strict diet either. It was just being active and, like, making food at home and staying away from sugar and watching what I drink. That's very important, because, like, people who drink, like, soda and, like, a ton of milk products are more prone to keeping weight on. I feel like even my dad, who, like, had the same thing happen to him at, like, the same time around me, except obviously he's way older now. Even he has, like, some loose skin. But he, like, works out pretty quickly even then. And it, like, he does. Yeah. It's weird. But, okay. Next question. Speaking on the topic of, like, you know, being a bodybuilder, what's, like, your, what's your PR now? And, like, what's your goal PR for, like, most lifting stuff? I don't know much about lifting, so, like, what are your PRs? And what are your goals? So, like, I don't really deadlift because you're more, like, prone to getting injured. That's, like, the most injured lift, like, injured prone lift you could do, because your back is, like, a lot of different muscles. And if you move your spine wrongly, you could, like, tear something or pull something the wrong way. And then you're out of the gym for a month or so. So I tend to not deadlift. But my PR in bench press is 225, which is the most it's ever been. And my deadlift, I deadlifted last week, and that was about 280, 285. And my squat is probably about the same, close to 300. And how much do you weigh? 205 pounds. Hmm. That's a good, I feel like that's a high amount. Yeah. It's more than your body weight. Yeah. A lot. 1% of the entire, I guess, gym community can bench press 225. And then of the entire, like, United States of America, 0.007% of Americans can bench press 225. What's your goal? Probably 300. Do you want to, like, make a career out of, like, bodybuilding, or do you want to find a different passion and bodybuild on your own time? Going off of, like, me in college, I was a psychology major. I wanted to be a family therapist. I have 72 credits at Brown University. With that, like, yeah, I wanted to be a family therapist. But given what I've been through and, like, my weight loss journey, it's very inspirational to people. I want to be something more along the lines of, like, a life coach or a weight loss coach. And I can do that with a psychology degree because that's in, like, the field of counseling. The people that are severely overweight are stuck in a mindset that's usually connected to a mental illness if they're overweight. And it's not, it's, like, blocking them from, like, getting past that and getting out of that mindset. I feel like it's all, everything stems back to your childhood. Like, my childhood definitely affected the way I eat, the way I act. How did your childhood affect, like, you being you now? I feel like your childhood really does go into it, and it's all mindset. All mindset. Yeah. So, like, I was alone a lot. My mom was always working when I lived at my mom's. So, like, I could eat whatever I want from the pantry. I was my sister's babysitter. So, like, I would cook for her, too. And, like, I would be making, like, pizza rolls and dojorno pizzas every single day. Or, like, ordering food. Who's mad when I cook for a little girl? Right. I'm just throwing something in the oven or the microwave, you know what I mean? Or mac and cheese. Like, stuff that's high in carbs, like, all the time. Like, I've never really liked sweets. Ever. I've never, even as a little kid, I didn't eat candy. The only thing I ate was Skittles if I did eat candy. I'm, like, a meal kind of guy. Like, I've always been like that. Like, I'll eat a lot if it's on the dinner table. But, like, when it comes to, like, snacks, I don't really ever. I've never ate chips like that. I've never ate candy. Like, snacking isn't my thing. It's, like, once it comes to dinner time. Like, when I was heavily overweight, I'd eat, like, a pound of pasta once a day. You know what I mean? What? Yeah. A pound of pasta? Like, a whole box? Yeah. I could probably eat, like, a half pound now. But just because my metabolism's higher and I work up a hunger in the gym. I feel like I get a solid fourth on a good day. No, even a fourth is, like, awesome. Like, sometimes I'll eat that. I really only eat, like, one cup of pasta. Yeah, isn't that, like, fourth? No. Oh. I don't know. That's seventh. Yeah. Oh. She did it. I guess. Yeah. Next question. Move on. Along with your, like, maybe fitness trainer goals, where do you see yourself in, like, ten years? Job-wise, even location-wise, like, relationship-wise. Like, where do you want to be in ten years? In ten years from now, like I said, like, I want to finish my psychology bachelor's. I want to be, like, some sort of, like, life coach, personal trainer, like, something along those lines. Maybe a counselor. I definitely want to be more involved in church. Since I've been in Ocean City a lot, I haven't been at my own, like, church, like, home base a lot, so. Do you think you're going to move to Ocean City? Probably not. That's how I come to that area. Or, like, around here? Yeah. Like, somewhere point back, like, five? Maybe. Maybe. You just got to be careful where you go in the church. Island boy. Yeah, I'm an island boy, you already know. Half Caribbean, you know what I'm saying? Anyways, um, but, um, health-wise, I want to be, like, chiseled, like, I want to look crazy in ten years. And I want to be, like, one of those, like, 50-year-old men that still go to the gym and are still active. Um, in ten years from now, hopefully, like, I mean. You'll be, what, 32? 33. 33. Okay. Almost going to leach. Um, but, like, I'm not looking for anything forced when it comes to, like, relationship-wise. So, like, if I do have a wife and kids at times, then I do. But, like, I'm just waiting for the right moment. Like, God puts a woman in my life and it is what it is. That's what's up, because you're religious. You've been practicing celibacy and whatnot, so you're obviously not going around dating and you're doing your thing. Yeah. So, yeah. I keep more focused on the gym, too. Period. Like, not having a woman at the moment. Because I definitely was more lustful in my younger years. And up until recently, like, I've been focused on God, my family, work, the gym, and my health. 100%. While you're mentioning God, what in your life primarily brought you to committing and giving your life to God? What did you try to do? I know there's going to be a lot of follow-up questions to this, but in, like, January of this year, I was doing some harder drugs that I was sniffing. I was sniffing? Yeah. Doing a powder that is not a pill. Putting it up my nose. That would keep you up for sometimes five days at a time. Five days? Let's just say that. That's crazy. Like, the longest I've ever stayed awake was seven days. Did you start, like, hallucinating by that time? You hallucinate after two or three days. Yeah, I feel like after, like, a day, I'd be like, ugh. Yeah. You start experiencing things like psychosis, where, like, you think people have, like, weapons on them. They're trying to kill you. Everybody's out to get you. Like, you think the FBI is trying to get you. Like, everything crazy like that starts happening. Like, it becomes a reality, and it's like your mental strength, it goes away. That wall in between reality and, like, fiction and your imagination just completely molds together, and you get very confused. I was only using, like, hard stuff for maybe four months, and it started off very slow. It was progressing. It was very sporadic at first. Like, once every two, three weeks. Then it was, like, once a week, and then, like, once every, like, few days. And then it got to the point where, in January, it was, like, every single day, multiple times a day, I was going blind to this drug. And I needed it to feel normal. I needed it to function, or else I was stuck in bed, and I couldn't move. Like, I was lazy. I needed it to perform in bed. I needed it to wake up in the morning. I needed it to do tasks around the house, like, things like that. But what led to me focusing more on God, I would say, is almost experiencing, like, a drug overdose and going through psychosis, where I thought people were out to kill me. And I was in a relationship with a girl for a year and a half. She was a stripper. A stripper? She was a dancer, yeah, I guess. We'll come back to that. We'll come back to that. I don't know. It just destroyed our relationship, and it made the trust between us so terrible that we literally could not leave each other's side, not even for two minutes, without thinking that we were fucking somebody in the house. Like, two minutes would pass, and we'd be trying to find each other, because we genuinely thought that one of us was sneaking somebody over in that little two minutes that we separated. Like, it was very weird. It was, like, messing with my head heavy, and I found myself, like, praying out to God and crying out to God in certain times where, like, I literally felt like everything was against me in the world. And the Lord helped me, like, get through those moments and gave me peace of mind. Like, I would be, like, hyperventilating. I'd be having anxiety attacks. I've never had, like, anxiety attacks in my life. I've had paranoia. I've never had paranoia in my life, and I would pray to God, and those things would just be removed from me. Like, in the name of Jesus, they would be gone, and I just, I guess I experienced how real he is in those moments, and it wasn't the drugs, because if it was, then why would those things be removed? Like, all those side effects be gone, like, just like that, just, like, in the blink of an eye, like, and I'm so preserved. You can add some to it. I don't look like I've had drugs. No, you really don't. Like, I look very young still. I did not think you were plus three. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. I look like I'm, like, 18, 19 years old, and I still have the youth, and I thank God every day for preserving me through that, and that's why I would never touch drugs again. Like, that was the smallest thing. Like, I don't even want to smoke weed anymore. I barely drink. Like, that kind of stuff, it just distorts your mind, and it acts as a crutch rather than you relying on God, and I guess, like, it was a big wake-up call for me, because it was very progressive, and it was slowly turned into something that was destroying my body-mind relationship with my girlfriend, my family, and I broke up with the girl because she was one of the reasons that kept me into that relationship. The reason that kept me into that, like, constant pull towards the drugs is because lust and drugs go hand-in-hand, especially when you start a relationship on drugs. It's hard to stop the drugs in the relationship, or, like, because the drug I was doing is considered a sex drug, and it would enhance every single feeling that you have during, like, those experiences. What were you doing? I mean, I can figure it out. Oh, sure. Okay. So... Wow, right? Okay, you're doing that for four months? Yeah. Four months. And honestly, like, it sounds crazy to say that word, but it literally looks like coke. Yeah. It's just... One of my dealers, probably around the same time, in the beginning of January, handed me a rock, and I was like, what's the substance? He's like, it's free, you can just have it, it's a weed rock. And I was like, uh, you know what, I'm good. Like, I don't really... Like, I'm good, he's like a street nigger. 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It gives you more of a euphoric feel. Meth keeps you up for days on end. So, it flushes your body of all the stuff that's in it, like every little vitamin, mineral, everything in your body comes out. So, as soon as you do it, you have to shit. You shit it, whatever. You don't initially feel that high, so it kind of creeps on you and you don't feel it until the next day. It's very weird how it works. That's why they call it a vendor. So, when you're on it for a couple days, it starts enhancing and enhancing and enhancing. So, that's why people stay up for days doing it, because it gets better and better and better. The feelings you get, you know those butterfly feelings you get? Alright, say you first kiss a guy and he gives you little butterflies in your stomach. Imagine that times 30 and then all of your physical feelings of love and lust and anger and happiness and sadness, everything is enhanced when you're doing an upper. Everything is higher. Think about that. So, any little thing can set you off, basically. Basically, in any direction. Now, if we're talking downers, dope would be the strongest downer. I've never done that. But, meth is sometimes laced with fentanyl, which is a downer. Dope would bring you down. All your emotions are gone. Everything is going away. You're becoming numb. So, that's the exact opposite. You get the euphoric feeling of tingles in your body and warmth and comfort. But, all of your human emotions start going away. That's how I can describe it. And when you're on meth too, it opens up your pupils to where you look like the shark from Nemo when he smells blood. The shark from Nemo? Clip that. Oh my god, I am late. I have my clip on. And by the way, none of my weight loss is attributed to drugs. But, what I was saying was, none of my weight loss I attribute to drugs at all. Because, obviously, I'm buff and shit now. And I don't think you've lost all that weight in like six months. So, I lost 130 pounds. It took me two years. I didn't start using any type of pills or anything like that until 2022. I was already down to 215 pounds by the time I started trying pills. It slowly progressed. What these kids don't understand nowadays is that they're doing these pills like Ecstasy and Mali or whatever. And slowly but surely, those pills don't work. And they try something harder. So, I was in the club life. I met the stripper in the club. And she introduced me to Mali. You know the Juice WRLD lyrics? I introduced it to the mom. You know what I'm saying? But, she introduced me to it. And slowly but surely, those effects that I got from those pills, they stopped working. So, I tried coke. And then I eventually was trying, because it was exactly the same. Did you not even realize? At first, no. I got tricked into it. But, like, a lot of the time people that are doing coke don't know. But, there's like 50% of the time there's meth in their coke. Or there's meth in their Ecstasy. Or there's fentanyl in all these different little pills that people are doing. So, like, you can't point the finger at someone that's doing meth and be like, Oh, that's so terrible. But then it's like, oh, those people are fine. They're doing pills. They're just pills. There's fentanyl in them shits. That's also what I was going to ask. Like, how did it progress? Like, you ever wake up one day and you're like, I'm going to try coke. You're like, I'm going to try meth. Like, how did that come along? Like, how did that start? So, my boy tried a coke. Like, what did it start with? So, like, obviously you said you smoked weed in the beginning. Like, did it progress from there? When did you start smoking weed? I started smoking weed when I was 12 years old. And I was the biggest pothead in my high school. And then in college I was one of the biggest pot dealers on campus. And I sold weed. Did you make bank? I literally made so much money that I got scared. After the first semester I stopped selling. Because I made, like, probably $8,000. Damn. In, like, four months. So, I got very scared. I was also selling Vyvanse, Adderall, and Erlen to college students. Which is, like, the college drugs. Like, they love that. They love it to study and they love it to party. That's something that you were also doing on weed actually. Yeah. So, like I said, like, it was very sporadic. I never tried hard, hard drugs until, obviously, 2022-ish. But, so, basically, in high school I had a shoulder injury. And they prescribed me Tramadol, which is like a Percocet, but it's very mild. I started liking it. I took more than I should when I was, like, in pain. And then I didn't use them again. And then I found Percs in my grandparents', like, medicine cabinet. I tried those. I really liked it. I stopped for, like, four or five months. Didn't try anything again. Then my boy, I was at his house, like, a year later. Like, this was all in high school. And he had Adderall. And I tried it. And I fell asleep on it because apparently I got ADHD. So, like, once I got to... I think a lot of people are here. A lot of people find out they have ADHD because they take an Adderall and they realize that it's not a party drug for them. They, like, sit down and, like, start focusing on, like, doing their homework or something. Yeah. Something weird. I don't know. But then when I got to college, I tried Coke for the first time. And I started abusing Adderall. Nothing right. And I started abusing the Ritalin and the Vyvanse. Anything I could get my hands on, I was abusing. Because, like, I thought it was cool. Like, I thought it was, like, I liked how it felt. I tried acid. I tried shrooms. But, yeah, then I stopped for a long time. And I gained hella weight because I stopped smoking and stuff. Yeah. So, I got to this very first relationship with this girl in college I met for three and a half years. And after, like, four or five months of me dating her, we both were, like, sober. She never tried to kill me, but I stopped. And I got very happy in the relationship. Gained mad weight. And then the relationship got very toxic, like, in that process. So, then I started eating more because of, like, the depression I was experiencing. And then, like, I was sober for a while. So, from, like, 2020 to 2022, I didn't do any type of pills or anything like that. And then, like, 2022 is when my boy, like, took me to the strip club. And I met the girl, the stripper girl. I was dating her during that. And she asked me if I wanted to do Molly with her. And I did. And I literally was, like, feeling emotion coming from other people. Like, I thought I knew what people were thinking and feeling. Like, every touch and every, like, love and lust felt so similar. It was crazy. Like, I felt like I was falling in love. Like, the second I got the pill and I was looking into her eyes. Like, the way the drug made my, like, whole entire body feel and, like, all my emotions. Like, I loved it. And I wanted to keep doing it. And that's where, like, that started my kind of addiction. I really wanted to have sex on it. Because I felt all these emotions. Like, damn, what's it like to, you know, do the dirty one or whatever. It was way better. Yeah, right. It was crazy. But then what people don't get is you start needing it in order to be aroused. Or you start needing it to even get to the point where you want to have sex. Or, like, you need it to function. And, like, that's when you have an addiction and it's a problem. Because you're relying on that drug to make you function as a normal human. Because it stops working normally. And you're just lesser of a person than you were before. Right. Alright. Well, I also wanted to ask you. So, you made the show The Different Shift Club. You said, if I'm not wrong, you worsted one. Let's talk about your job story for a second. What are your past jobs? We're going to start with now. But what are your past jobs? Okay. So, when I was 16, I worked at Wendy's. Then I worked at Wawa as a night supervisor. After that, I was an operations manager at a Walmart warehouse. It's like a mini Amazon. So, it's order fills, like, online kind of stuff. And then I got into, like, a little car accident thing. So, I stopped working there. And they laid me off because I don't know why. But... A little car accident thing. Yeah, I almost died. We're going to come back to that. Okay. I do have questions about that. Don't worry. And then, now I'm here. I'm a supervisor at Starbucks. So, yeah. Okay. Oh, I forgot. Yeah. I was a bouncer. I was a doorman at the club. So, like, I first met the girl. And the club, like, boss knew that I was getting high and stuff. And, like, he knew me because I was coming for, like, two months at that point. I was there, like, every day. He knew I was, like, in a relationship with the stripper. And he still hired me as the doorman for the weekends. My job was to check IDs, watch the private dances where girls were giving guys, like, dances in the back. Where, like, they took off their clothes or whatever. Ensure that everything was, like, good and the people were following rules. Not taking pictures with the girls. Not being rough with the girls. If something happened, I basically had to use my hands and beat people up. Right. That's scary. How scary do you think? What's your scariest situation you've ever been in because of that? I feel like every situation was scary. Because, like, if I put hands on somebody, who's going to tell? Right. They could always get rough back. Yeah. Like, they would get rough back. But my thing was, who do they know? They could just come back to the club and just shoot me down. Like, you know what I mean? They could find out who you are at this point. Right. You can get a picture of you and find out who you are and where you live. What was the club? Oh, it was in Vineland, New Jersey. It's called Sanctuary Gentlemen's Club. Okay. I didn't mean to hold it, but thank you. So, it wasn't a strip club. It was a gentlemen's club. It was a gentlemen's club. Yeah, it was a armpit, basically. Like, I don't know. I was definitely dating one of the more bougie strippers there, per se. Like, she was two years younger than me. She was, like, the youngest stripper there. And she was more, like, high class. Like, she didn't really do private dances like that. And she was very reserved. But, like, she was definitely a ho. Definitely a ho. All right. Tell me about your sexuality experience. What was that like for you? Okay. So, the first time I ever did acid, I dropped four tabs. What the fuck? What the fuck? Can you believe that? What do you mean? Okay. So, I did one. I did one. And, like, I didn't know it takes, like, 30 minutes to an hour to kick in. So, like, I was like, bro, it's not working. So, 30 minutes later, I took another one. And I waited, like, another 10 minutes. And I was like, bro, it's not working. So, he gave me two more. I feel like, to me, it always takes at least an hour, an hour and a half. So, by the time the hour hit, it, like, slowly creeped on me. Like, I kind of liked it. And then three hours went by. I was stuck in this, like, trance. Like, I didn't, like, know what was going on. I felt like a little kid. Like, I literally was a little kid. Yeah, because when your teeth start. Yeah. So, like, I saw a fire truck, for instance. And I was like, oh, my God, there's a fire truck. And I started getting so hype. So, like, we were, like, going on our longboards. Me and my friends were all tripping together. And we'd be going. And then we'd, like, be going fast. And then, all of a sudden, we'd, like, roll all of us to, like, a complete stop. And we'd just be standing on our boards. And we'd all just look at each other like, where were we going? What were we doing? And then we'd just make up something new to do. That's fun. And then we'd all be chilling. We'd be talking about something. And, like, a brief second would pass. And we would all just say, like, what were we just talking about? Or, like, what were more, like, the things we saw, I guess. That's always the more interesting thing that jugs me. I never cared how I felt. I was more interested about, like, I want to see something cool. I was looking down a long hallway. And it was, like, I was literally, like, waving and, like, moving side to side. Like, it looked like I was, like, in a long, like, train in a way. And, like, there was a lot of curves. And, like, the whole thing was, like, bendy and windy. Like, it was kind of crazy looking. And then I was trying to imitate it with my body. And I just looked stupid. All right. Personally, I like shrooms better than that. Shrooms was, like, less intense because I did, like, a low dose. I ate one of those chocolate bars. And I just could not stop laughing. Do you know how many grams it was? It was an eight. Yeah. Two grams. One time. Yeah. My experience was, like, I could not stop laughing. Like, I just thought everything was funny. I cried for about two hours. In my arms. Because I was having such a good time. Okay. Do you believe in the theory that psychedelics are connected to religion in any way? Um. Because I feel like it kind of makes sense in some sense. Like, in some sense, it kind of makes sense. I've been listening to Joe Rogan. And Joe Rogan's kind of got his head straight. I don't know. I feel like he's a sensible man. Yeah. And his, I've been listening to his podcast where he talks about how the bush that, who was it? John saw the burning bush. Moses? Who's, that's a guy I don't know, John. Moses saw the burning bush, and it might have been a DMT bush. Red with. Or was it yellow? No, it was Moses. It was a acacia bush. Rich with DMT. And that's why it was red and orange. And it looks like it was on fire. And he saw God because he did DMT. And he did see God. He, like, was in such a serious psychedelic state where he saw God. When you talk to people that take DMT, they say, like, they straight up see things. Like, they go into a trance. Do you think that's true? Um. In a way, I feel like it could potentially be true. But the Bible does say that you're supposed to have a sober mind, clean hands, and a pure heart. Like, clean hands meaning, like, not doing wrong or altering your mind or being lustful or committing sin on, like, a regular basis and repenting. God wants you to rely on him rather than a drug. You know what I'm saying? Like, you can have a personal relationship with God without taking drugs. Psychedelics very often are DMT. Often, let alone at all. But I've never done DMT. But just saying. So, um. How do you, like, what's the word? I don't know the word. How do you, like, hit a bass and then say you need, like, a clean soul and, like, mind and whatever? So, like, coffee and nicotine go hand in hand. Yeah. So, like, anything. Everything releases chemicals in your brain. Vaping is something that I do want to stop. But it's, like, the last thing that I'm going to want. Like. Yeah. Obviously, like. Yeah. Yeah, I would say, like, it's on my list of, like, things I'm cutting out. But I didn't just cold turkey everything. The Bible does say that, like, matineo, which means, like, 180, like, about face, completely changed. That's also one of the things I wanted to ask you. How did you stop? When did you stop? How did you, like. What? How did you get in the mindset of, like, I need to tell you to stop? Did you go to, like, detox and rehab? Or did you just be, like, all right. No. I just didn't. Just mind over matter. I just stopped. I broke up with the bitch. Oh, excuse me. I'm not supposed to call her a bitch. But she was. She didn't really care about my emotions. And, like, I'm a very, like, in touch with my emotions guy. Like, I can talk to somebody who I'm in a relationship with, like, openly. Like, I love, like, very, like. Like, I might seem like a goofball, like, an asshole sometimes. But, like, when I'm in a relationship with a woman, I completely devote myself with loyalty and, like, love. And I'm not afraid to talk about how I feel. And sometimes she would be, like, ayo, like. Link this podcast to your Tinder. What? She would be, like, I don't know, not understanding. Like, at all. Yeah. And I'd be the one talking about how my feelings are and stuff. And she'd just never understand. But then she'd get mad at me over, like, these simplicities. Like, these tiny little things. Like, I don't do something right when I'm cleaning up or something. Like, or I don't put something away right. Like, I'd be talking about real, like, real issues. Real shit. And you're just not getting it. It's not, like, connected with you. Like, you don't understand how I'm feeling right now. So drugs enhanced all that and made it worse. Like, you know what I mean? Yeah, you're not like a, oh, well, we were just fighting because, like, we were behind. Like, I was behind. You were fighting because you guys were behind. You were feeling your emotions. You're an emotional guy. So obviously you're feeling it way more intense. And that obviously didn't help. Yeah. Like, I wasn't, like, a scooby-dooby-cry baby. But, like, I was openly talking about, like. Yeah, yeah. I think that's not a bad thing. That's not being a scooby-dooby-cry baby. It's just being in tune with your emotions and knowing when somebody's not good for you. And knowing when you're having a problem in a relationship and what that problem is. That's a better thing than anything if you ask me. You should be able to communicate your feelings. Right. You should be able to identify when, like, you're having a problem and what that problem is. Right. So, like, one time she slapped me in the beginning of the relationship. And I said to her. Fuck off. Listen, I said to her, if you ever do this again, like, I'm walking out at the moment of, like, I don't care. It's going to happen, right? The only time I ever slapped a man that I was dating was because I had proof of him cheating. Valid. Proof. And he even said it was valid, too. So, after that first time, it literally, like, a year passed. And this is when we were going through this. And she smacked me. And then that was it for me. I was like, now I'm going to go get clean. I'm going to get sober on my own. And all I need is my family and being home and good vibes. Like, focusing on my health. I'm going to get real jacked. I literally told her to her face. I'm like, I'm going to the gym. I'm going to be a football player. I'm going to get a job. And this is all going to happen within the next couple months. Watch. And what happened? Literally, I'm doing all that stuff. Like, I'm about to be on a semi-pro football team. Period. What football team? Chaminade. The militia. The militia? What's that? It's a semi-pro football team. But, like, what league are you guys in? Do you guys, like, are getting paid to go out and do your thing? No, it's like. Free time? It's like, they don't get paid. The next league upped us. So, like, it's under the XFL. Like, it's not an XFL league. It's, like, at the bottom of the semi-pro teams. So, like, we don't get. Can you, like, make your way to the top? Yes. There's scouts for the higher-ups. So, would you want to be an NFL? Who the life coach would you want to be in the NFL? Yeah. If you got the chance? Yep. You would be a football player? I think that's my biggest dream. I think that is. You look like. Of Chase, the semi-pro football player from. Do you want the handle? Like, you like. Have you ever seen that show? No. Or, like, perfect match. Oh, okay. Am I the only one watching? Yeah. I don't need to be in here? Yeah. All right. And it's crazy because I had this experience. I was in church and this kid prayed over me. He was, like, farther along on his, like, journey. And he laid hands on me and started praying. And I dropped. Like, I fell out. And I saw, like, I saw something. It was me on one knee in front of, like, a whole football team, like, just, like, talking about God. So, like. What? It seemed pretty legit. Like, maybe God was showing me, like. It could be very metaphorical, though. It may not mean exactly that, but something. No, yeah. Okay. Let's talk about it. Okay. Oh, good one. So, how many tattoos do you have? So, I have one covering my whole left forearm. What does that say? The mountains shake before you. The demons run and flee. At the mention of the name King of Majesty. And it has, like, a little cross. That's from my favorite worship song as a kid. It's called The Great I Am. Go check it out. My pastor put me on. He is now deceased. Rest in peace. He's, like, a father figure to me. And then on my right arm, I got King Leonidas. It's all covering my whole forearm. Because, like, Spartans are dope. They're, like, warriors. And the Spartan body is insane. And that's, like, the body that, like, I want. It's not an idol for me. But it's something that I aspire to, like, look like. Also, the United States military still uses the tactics of the Spartans. It's called the balance. It's where they move at a point. And everybody's watching, like, you know, each other's backs in a way. Like, it's just the most, I feel like, efficient, like, battle tactic there is. And it's cool that they still use that. Also, like, Spartans are raised to be warriors. Like, as a kid. Do you feel like that? You were raised to be a warrior? Yeah, I'm a warrior for God. I can't be a warrior. But, like, as a kid, when you're a Spartan male, if you have any deformities or any birth defects up until you're five, they literally throw you off a cliff and you die. They raise you up from birth to be a warrior. So, like, I feel like that's tough. I feel like I was raised from birth to be a warrior for God. And that's why I've gone through so many trials in my life to help people that have gone through similar things. Right, and you're still choosing him and showing people that, like, you can still go through all that and choose him, I feel like. Right. The Twelve Disciples, some of them murdered. Some of them stole. Some of them were, like, the tax collectors. Some of them did fish traps, you know what I'm saying? Like, God uses people that you, like, wouldn't think of. So, if somebody's judging you based on your decisions, like, you still have the opportunity to, like, get right with God. Like, God can use anybody. God can use a homeless man on the side of the street with nothing to his name and him being on drugs. And God can use that man, like, period. Right, 100%. But then, yeah, my next tattoo. All right, so, on my chest, it says, we got this. Me and my sister both got this. It says, we got this about, like, three inches long on my collar. She got it on the back of her arm. And it's, like, we got this, like, you know, we in it together. Like, we got this. But it's also, like, we got this. Like, we got this tattoo together, you feel me? So, we got, like, a together tattoo. And then, on my left, behind my ear, I have O5. That's my sister's birth year, and she got my birth year. She got OO behind her ear. And then, on the right side, I'm going to end with this one because I feel like it's one of the most powerful. It says, discipline. I feel like that is, like, something that you need in life in order to be successful in any type of way, in anything, you know what I'm saying? Discipline is key to everything. If you want to succeed and get anything or get anywhere or achieve your dreams, goals, desires, you have to have discipline in some type of way, shape, or form. You got to dedicate time to your discipline. You have to be determined to, you know, succeed in that. If you don't have discipline, you have nothing. Motivation comes and goes. Discipline is something that you have to do things you don't want to do sometimes. That's what discipline is. It's hard, and it's hard today, but it's easier tomorrow. People that are lazy, it's easy today, it's harder tomorrow. You feel me? Damn, I like that. I like that a lot. Appreciate it. 100. So you're going to end off with discipline or you're going to do another one? No, I'm getting, like, a whole sleeve on my right arm. What do you want to get? So I'm getting, like, a Taino or Taino tribal tattoo, like Maui sort of, like the rock has. Those are the indigenous people of Dominican Republic, Puerto Rico, and somewhere else. I don't know. Like the Caribbean islands. The indigenous people, like mix them with Europeans and Africans, and, like, now it's, like, Spanish people as we know. But, like, the tribes there, like, they have cool, like, tattoos, and I want mine to, like, incorporate, like, a Dominican flag on my upper right chest. Okay. And then the rest of my arm near the Spartan, so, like, my whole forearm and, like, some of my bicep. I want to have, like, a gladiator, a nice Templar. I want to have a, like, I want the Athens, like, warrior as well. So, like, if you ever watch the movie 300, then there's, like, 300, the second movie. They have, like, the Athens in there, and they wear blue instead of red. So, yeah. That's what's up. That's what's up. I'm just going to get a bunch of other pieces, but I'm not going to, like, fill it in, like, my right sleeve. So I'm just going to get, like, random little, like, significant things in my life. I like that. And then I have a question also. How do you justify having tattoos and, like, being a man of God? Isn't that, like, a big no-no? So, yeah, it kind of is. Well, like, if you think about it, my dad is a big man of God. I just want to understand, like, the mindset behind it because, like, I've never understood that. I've never understood that one because I feel like some really, really religious people will have, like, tattoos. So, like, it says in the Bible, don't mark your body. And in that time, the marking of your body was a lot different. It was, like, scarring. Like, don't mark your body. Don't, like, cut yourself. Don't, like, cut yourself. Don't, like, bleed yourself. Don't, like, put burn marks on your body. Or, like, you ever watch, like, the Black Panther where, like, they have, like, the little, like, I don't know, dots of scars all over their arms? Those are kill marks. Like, they're telling you how many kills they have. That, like, was actually used in Africa and by the Taino people, I believe. But I think it's more along the lines of that, like, don't mark your body. But it could be don't mark your body and put ink on it. I mean, you are scarring your body. It's a healed scar. I just got my first tattoo. Yeah, so this is a healed scar. So it's basically the same thing as, like, cutting something in your body. Yeah. But instead, nowadays, we have something to make it stay there forever and be dark. Basically. Yeah, I don't know. It's hard to do in art. But before, it was used for other things. Alright, I agree. I agree. One question I definitely wanted to ask, which is kind of off topic. Gay son or shot daughter? Hmm. I'm going with shot daughter. I knew you would do that. I knew you would do that. But personally, I would choose gay son. What's your reasoning behind shot daughter? You'd rather have a grandchild at 14. No, at 14. You'd be probably, like, 40 and having a grandkid on your shoulder. I don't know. Because you'd have to take care of her baby. Alright, so love them, hate what they do. That's what the Bible teaches. So what's the problem with gay son? I don't have an issue with people that are gay at all. I have an issue with what they do. I feel like your gay son is going to cause you a lot of problems. I don't agree with people committing gay sexual acts in or out of marriage. It doesn't make sense. God made man and woman opposite reproductive systems for a reason. There's, like, you know what I'm saying? Somebody that's attracted to the opposite sex. There's something going on. Okay, but I'm attracted to both. So, like, how do you, like, how do you look at that? You can look at another male and be like, okay, yeah, that's an attractive male. Like, he's, like, up to par. You can say that because most people won't admit that. You know what I'm saying? Like, I can say, like, yo, bro, like, to my homies, like. You're looking fine. You're looking fine as hell, homie. No, I would never say that. Yeah, you're looking fine. Like, for instance, like, my boy that works here, like. Like, I have no sexual attraction to him, but, like, he's looking fine. I'm like, damn, like, damn. Exactly. It's more along the lines of, yo, bro, you're a good-looking guy. Like, you can, you know, you can get a good girl. You know what I'm saying? Like, stuff like that. That's how I talk as a straight male to a male that's my friend. Now, I'm not going to go up to a random Joe Schmoe and be like, yo, you look good. Like, no, I wouldn't do that. But, like, when it comes to, like, friends and family, like, I'll talk to a guy and be like. If your friend's ugly, will you tell him, like, you're a good-looking guy? Or will you only tell your good-looking friends, like, you're a good-looking guy? I tell my good-looking friends, like, bro, like, you look good, bro. You can do better. Or, like, bro, you look good. Like, you shouldn't have any type of insecurities. You know what I'm saying? About yourself or the way you look. Like, I'm motivating people. I'm not, like, I'm not sexualizing them. There's a difference between, like, admiring somebody's attractiveness and sexualizing them and thinking, like, they're hot. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. Like, I'm not attracted to men. But I can be like, okay, he's not an ugly dude. You feel me? Yeah. Like, back to gay son, like, I feel like I would feel shame. I would feel shame. You would not feel shame for a thot daughter? I would feel shame for a thot daughter, but I would feel like I was a little bit of a thot male. You know what I'm saying? They're going the right way, like, you know what I'm saying? Technically, you're a thot son and gay at the same time because you're committing gay acts out of marriage. Like, if you do anything out of marriage, like, you're technically a whore. So you think, what if he's gay and we're supposed to have sex until he gets married and he just knows he's gay? Well, it won't be honored under God, so technically it's not marriage. Okay. Okay. Real, like, pastors and preachers would honor that type of marriage. It's like two men shall not lay together. It's like a mortal sin. A mortal sin is when, like, in the eyes of God, like, God can literally curse you. Like, curse families. He can place a curse over you and make you an abomination. You know what I'm saying? That's like if somebody, like, has, like, reality problems. When he comes back, he's going to get you. People that, like, lust for children, God will curse those people. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, 100%. Those, like, terrible sins. Okay, what are you talking about? Like, identifying pedophiles. Like, people who identify as pedophiles. I know somebody who personally, like, that went to my high school that was 18 said, like, he identified as a pedophile. He was attracted to, like, 13, 14-year-olds. Like, what are your thoughts on that? That's disgusting. I agree. Thank you. I think you should go to jail. Because after 16, if you're looking at a 13, 14-year-old right now, like, that's so weird. If they act on it, they deserve to death penalty. Like, I am 16. I would never date someone younger than me, I don't think. And I would never date someone at least more than a year older than me. Because I'm 16 and I'm dating an 18-year-old and I just don't think that's right. That's wrong. I don't think that's right. They're 13 years older than me or not. Like, I just don't think that's right. When I was in a relationship, I was, like, 13 and the kid was fucking 15. That was not right. That wasn't. That was weird. At my age, at 23. I don't want to say mental plane at such a young age. Once you guys are older, you know, it doesn't really matter. But I feel like at such a young age, it, like, really, you guys aren't mentally there on the same page yet. At my age at 23, I feel like 3, 3 and a half years is my mark. No, so, like. Yeah, because that's weird. 19 and a half to 20. Yeah, because you're 18. Like, that's still weird. Yeah. So, like, 3 years up and 3 years down. That's usually my rule of thumb. Yeah, that's not right. Anything, like, older than 3 years older than me, it's kind of like, you're not going to change your mental. Yeah, no. Right, you guys are looking for different things. Yeah. Anything more than 3 years younger, like, okay, you act like a kid. You know what I'm saying? Like, not act like a kid, but, like, you give off, like, my sis vibes. Like, I feel like you could be my sis. And even that, like, freaking out. Like, she's only 16, and I'm 17, and I'm like, oh, my God, like, this girl's such a baby. Like, what? Especially when she's 15. I know that it was a lot worse. It would be a lot worse thing. Yeah. But, um, especially, I feel like when I was at 15. Yeah. I wasn't even, like, vaping at 15. And I was, like, not smoking weed at 14. That could, like, suck your brain. I know, right. I know. Seriously, why did I do that? Like, you would just stop and go, like, I'd be glitching at the register. I'd be, like, do, do, do. Do, do, do. I don't know. Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do. Like, simulation. Like, brain shock? I hear, like, that's a thing. Do you get brain shock? I had a re-trip after, like, five months of non-smoking. I was looking at my phone, and the letters started to wave. And I was, like, oh, no. Oh, my God. Oh, that scared me. Honestly, I thought turtles when I was tripping my phone. I would accept, because I need to talk about my lemon pill case that I had. Oh. I took a whole box of them. I popped a whole box of them, actually. 24-pack. 24-pack. And nobody talked about it. But I thought. Name one person that you've met. I don't. Okay, well, she's on the fucking channel, man. But I thought I had my phone in my hand. I thought I had my phone in my hand. And it was my second hand. And I was going, like, this is my hand. And then I realized it was my hand. And I'd be, like, oh, shit, that's my hand. Like, where's my phone? Where's my second phone? My mom's just my phone. I knew that. And I would all of a sudden go back to my hand and be, like, oh, I'm on Snapchat. Like, seriously. Like, really thinking I was using my phone. I was sitting on the couch and my mom was looking through my room. Because, obviously. Oh, no. And Liliana's dead asleep on the bed. Like, dead ass. I honestly don't get that. Can we talk about that? How our trips were so different. We both took the exact same amount. And she fell asleep and I was up in bed. It all has to do with the chemical balance of your brain. Yeah. Yeah. Like, everybody has a different balance. And it depends on your mindset. What you go through in life. Your chemical balances. But I was, like, her age. I was the most depressed I've ever been in my life. That's the worst part. And I straight up just was, like, fuck it. And I just took the whole packet by myself. With no thought behind it. No research. Because I didn't care what happened to me. I didn't care if I died or not. I didn't give a flying fuck. So, I was just, like, okay. I'll do it. Whatever. We stole them from the store. Like, didn't even pay for them. I put them in my pockets and we walked out. And, like, then we took them that night. And then I was fucking bald, bro. And I ended up in the hospital, like, dead ass. That's crazy. You could have died. When I woke up the next morning, like, in the hospital. I had, like, an IV in me. And they were putting fluids into me. Because I was literally fucking really drunk. Yeah. Okay. Now, one of our biggest topics. Your car accident. Oh, where? What caused you to get into your car accident? What happened? This one's fun. Not really. And this, if I'm not wrong, was the reason you came. Was one of the much bigger reasons you came to God? So, this was before I met the strippers. So, like, I kind of, like. Actually, I had a phase where, like, I came to God. Before coming to God. And then I fell off again. Yeah. So, like, that tends to happen a lot in the Christian community. I feel like that happened to me at least once already. When I was, like, 17. You'll develop this relationship with the Father. And then you kind of, like, get lost. And you, given the temptation. Walking on any path, you can get lost for a little. But you always go back on the path at some point. Right. So, like, the 100 sheep. God will leave the 99 to go after the 1. So, like, you're his child. You always will be. If you ever had a relationship with him, like, it hurts his heart. He gets jealous. He gets mad. He gets sad. He feels all those emotions that we do. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, 100%. So, I had that time where I had left the Father. You know, I wasn't. I had a lot of idols. I had a lot of idols in my life. One of them was my car. I had a 2019 Camaro. And it was all tricked out. I had the tent. I had a straight pipe. I had cold air exhaust. I had everything. I had vinyl on the side. I had window louvers. Everything. Like, I would get up in the morning at 5 a.m., wax and wash my car. Every single day. Wax and wash my car. I would spend two hours every day working on my car. Whatever it was. I had to customize the inside. I did it myself. Everything in that car, like, I was in love with. And I put it before God. So, what happens when you put something before God and you make that your everything, God can't work and move in your life so that canopy of protection is pulled off of you and the devil can have his way with you. When this happens and God's not in your life to protect you, comfort you, and be there for you and protect you, all those kinds of things, the devil can cause evil and bad things to happen, right? Yeah. So, since it was my idol, I was driving a lot and I was acting a fool. And I went to A-City, Atlantic City, with my boy. We went to a strip club. But this was one of the clubs that I kind of liked going to. And we were drinking 21. It was August of 2021. We got drunk all day long. We were drinking all day. And I stopped drinking once we got to the club. We had a couple beers at the club. But I waited like four to five hours before we went home. It was like three or four o'clock in the morning when I started driving. Were you eating any, like, drinks? No. I was just smoking weed and drinking all day. And smoked three before we left. But you can, like, tell, like, that doesn't mess with you. Yeah, you'll have, like, two beers. If you stop, like, you're still going to be, like, in some way. I was up for, like, 18 to 20 hours at this point. So I was driving home. My boy was asleep. And I fell asleep at the wheel and crashed head-on with another car, going probably, like, 50 miles per hour. I rolled my car, and I was stuck for two to three hours, and my right foot crushed by the wheel well. Oh, shit. The way we hit was, like, my left headlight and his left headlight. Like, the driver's side and driver's side just smacked into each other, and both of our wheels pushed in and crushed the driver on the I hit and me. My boy was unscathed. I was stuck for two to three hours. My foot was my right foot was crushed, and they were going to amputate me. Did you, like, wake up and crash it? No, I woke up after. I was so confused. My steering wheel was, like, on the ceiling. Like, it was pushed up, and, like, my head was down. I just lifted up. And all I remember is my guy friend saying, like, what happened? And I was, like, looking, like. I started weeping a little bit, and then I passed out from the pain because, like, I didn't know what was wrong. Then I wake up again because I'm sawing off my door, and, like, I start weeping again. I thought you were going to fucking amputate your foot. Yeah, so I'm getting to that part. I remember things. They pulled the door off, and they were trying to get my leg out. They could not get my foot because I broke my first metatarsal in half, and I dislocated my foot. It was crushed by the metal that protects you from the engine. My car was not on fire, thank God. Otherwise, I would be dead. But I remember they were trying for so long to get my foot out, and I was losing blood, and they could tell because I was, like, turning white. They told me that, well, we can't get you out. We might have to amputate. Or they said that in the background or something, and I screamed out, no, I'm too young. You're not taking my foot. You're not taking my foot. Yo, what up? You're not taking my foot. So I told them, like, I felt my foot being able to, like, move a little bit. It was probably just because it was dislocated, but I told them that I can get my foot out. And they said, oh, go ahead then. Try. So I wrapped my left arm underneath my thigh, wrapped my right arm underneath, and I yanked upward as hard as I could, and I literally freed my foot out of the shoe where my foot was crushed. And they started, like, oh, wow, like, they were all in shock. And as soon as they started pulling me out of the car, I felt, like, weightless, and I passed out again because I saw my foot, like, dangling. Like, my foot was dislocated and broken, like, terribly. Here's where, like, it gets a little, like, dicey. The guy that I hit, I know every single one of his injuries to this day. He had seven broken ribs, a lacerated spleen, a punctured lung, broken femur. He broke his pelvis. He injured his penis. He broke his hand. He, like, broke some bones in his arm. He dislocated his hip or something like that, like, and he was, like, 47 years old. And I thank God that he didn't die and... Would you be in jail? He would be in jail. I would be in jail. Did you get any charges? That's called involuntary manslaughter if you kill somebody. Mm-hmm. I thought you had charges. I did not get any charges, thank God. Three months ago, I got approved for pre-trial intervention, which is because I have no prior record at all. I've always been, like, a somewhat good kid, or just I've never been caught doing anything wrong. Because I have no record and because I'm, like, a good kid, like, because I am, like, despite my drug use, like, I've never been an outwardly, like, evil person. So they approved me for PTI. I have to be... And mind you, this happened when I was 21. Like, I'm 23, and they just now approved me for this program to where if I'm good for two years and I pay $300 a month for one year and I have a probation officer time... It's not probation, but it's like probation. If I do all these requirements, community service, mothers against drunk driving, then I will have no charges and it won't be on my record, and I get to keep my license, all that kind of stuff. That's what's up. So the guy that I hit did not even press charges on me. It was the state that did. Lucky. Yeah. So I didn't get sued. And also, I was under the legal limits. Right. When I crashed, they took my blood. Probably why the state pressured you to have it in your blood. Yeah, so it's like anything in your blood at all, even if it's weed. It doesn't matter. If you have weed in your system, you fall sick, and you hit somebody, they're testing your blood. If it's in there, even from two days before, they're going to try to charge you with assault by auto. That's what they're trying to charge you with. And my blood alcohol was like a .03. And the legal limit in New Jersey is if you're driving and you blow into a breathalyzer, a .05 or above, then that's a DUI. I was under that. So, yeah, I was under it, but it was still in my system. You were still pretty high. You were only .02 under. No, so that's like a third of a beer. What, .03? Yeah. That's like drinking a third of a beer. That's not even going to get me a buzz. Okay, well, I'm just saying. But it's still taking me back to my system. Yeah. And you're like on the way to getting buzzed or drunk. Right. I don't know if we're coming at me a third of a beer. I was like .245 at the time. That's text to an ex. Yeah, but I'm very thankful for my life. I've had a lot of close-to-death experiences with drug use and car accidents. I've had a dirt bike accident where I tore my shoulder. All these different things where, I thank God, and in those days, I try to thank Him every day for my life and Him preserving me and giving me the opportunities to share my testimony. Like, even like this. This is me sharing my testimony. Right, that's why I wanted to have you on, because you were supposed to share it at church, but you didn't get the chance to, and I feel like I'm going to be hearing that story, and not only, but I want to make sure it's not just heard by me. If it's heard by people, even if it's just like the five people that end up watching this, like, if we're being so for real, maybe only five people watch it, and that's fine. Five people are going to hear this, and maybe take something away from it and think, like, holy shit, like, this guy's got a point. Maybe I should come to God, or maybe I should implement some of the things He's saying in my life, like, a better thing. Yeah. Obviously, you know me as, like, I'm a goofball at work, and I'm like a hype man, and I try to always, like, be uplifting in the mood and everything like that. I think that's a good thing. Yeah, so, like, I was always, like, a goofball, but I was never, like, always like that. At first, it was a little off for me, because I'm more of, like, a serious worker. Like, I come down here, and I'm thinking, like, all right, I thought I got a winner mindset. Let's get down to business. What are we cleaning? She's here to work. Right. I'm thinking, like, okay, well, last time I was here, like, every Sunday, I'm getting down on hands and knees in the drinks. What am I cleaning first? Like, that's just my, that's all when I come here. And I was like, okay, what's on your room badge? Like, he's getting paid more than me. So, like, I have, like, a decent balance at it. So, when I'm actually working, I'm very fast and efficient, and then, like, I'll take, like, a brief, like, two or three minutes and goof off as hard as I possibly can and then literally get right back to work. Or, like, I'll be literally working, multitasking, like, doing the dumbest or saying the dumbest thing possible, making everybody laugh, but still getting their drinks done. Hey, Daniel, do you want to say hi to the podcast? Yeah, you're coming on with Brynn next week. That shit's going to be funny. That is going to be so funny. Right, I feel like we have to share, like, crazy stories of, like, I don't know, it's going to be interesting. Oh, my God. Someone's going to help out mopping. Let's end on a good note real quick. Oh, we're getting dumbed. Oh, my God, yeah, I'll help out. So, let's end off on a good note. Where do you see God out in your future? I know you talked about something about self, like, what was it, personal coaching, but where do you see God in that? Like, do you like to teach, like, you want to be a Christian type of life coach? Yeah, so, like, that is going to be the pinnacle. Or, like, preaching as an NFL player, that you can be in the NFL and still be a mega person. You can use anything and make it about God. So, like, it may not be labeled about God, but, like, I can implement it every single way. I don't know, I feel like my testimony has a lot of power, and, like, everybody's testimony is unique. Everybody's story is unique and beautiful in every way, and God works wonders and miracles, and I feel like everything that's happened to me has happened for a reason, and I can use that, and I can talk about God and what he's done for me and what he's doing today and what he's going to do for me in very positive ways and all throughout everything I do. So, like, in the gym, for instance, like, even now today, like, I'll talk about my weight loss to random people, but I'll always glorify God in the process. It wouldn't be possible without God. I thank God every day for this weight loss. Like, when I'll be in the gym, and I'll even lift up my hands and praise God, or I'll be at work, and, like, I'll ask God for strength or, like, for peace of mind, or I'll talk about God at work, or, like, random people I'll be talking to. I, like, kind of, like, try to nudge in there something about God. Like, I try to make everything about him, and, like... 100%. You think that your way of being closer to him in your future is sharing, getting his word out. Right. I think that's a good idea. I think, when I first, when I came back here, I started going to church again, because I hadn't found a good church around me, and I always have gone to church, and I should say this is one of my things. And I've always, like, you know, done my research on my own, been religious on my own, but when I went to church after that first time back, I sat down in my prick for maybe, like, two minutes, and I was sitting there, I'm thinking, I'm going to start crying. God's a powerful, powerful being, and he's got a lot to do with everything good in his followers' life, I feel like. Yeah. And he's going to provide strength to, like, the people who do follow him. And, I mean, I'm not, like, the biggest, you know, church maniac. I think a lot of what they do teach in church is bullshit, especially somebody who has family, who owns a church, who spews out the biggest bullshit. Oh. The biggest bullshit. The worst. And I'll tell you about that. I know there's, I can tell you about that separately, but. So that's where, like, I want to go back to the beginning. That was harder for me also, one thing. Coming to know him was really hard for me, because I thought, you know, a Christian was somebody like the people who I know, the most miserable people. And it took me somebody happy, truly, genuinely, just happy out of her existence, who had this energy and light about her, my neighbor, to say, like, hey, just come to church with me one day. And I was like, okay, what else am I going to do? Stay at home and be sad? And, as you know, that really just opened my life up, and it showed me what I can be with God in my life. And it doesn't have to be bad. Right. So, like, back to, like, the beginning of what you said, like, you said, so now you're, like, this religious person. If you actually look at the word religious, you can be religious about anything. Religious is literally thinking, like, you're so adamant. Or, like, spiritual. Yeah, spiritual is the right word. Spiritual is the right word you want to use. Religiousness is bad. Religiousness is, I know it all, and you can't teach me anything new, what I believe is right and what you believe is wrong. Yeah. I feel like I'm very open-minded. I believe in certain things that I know some people think are, like, outlandish, almost even, but I kind of consider myself, I, like, I believe in Christianity. I believe that God is real, you know, all that. And he will, like, pass judgment whenever, one day, and he's got all these rules. But I do take part as, like, an omnibus, because I feel like there's something to learn from every religion. But I do try to, like, read up on other spiritualities that aren't Christianity. Just as, like, you can learn stuff. Just as, like, I'm a human being, because even if you're not religious, looking at the Bible, it's a good way to live. It has good lessons, and I feel like every religion has good lessons. So, I may be wrong about this, but I do believe the Bible says something along the lines of, like, know your enemy. Know your enemy. And if you look at other religions, they're very similar, but they get slightly different. They're very, very similar, but slightly different. And the only thing that truly separates every other religion is how they practice. And I will practice the way my religion says it will. The very one thing about all the gods that they, I guess, imagine, or whatever, compared to Jesus, who is the king, the Bible and God, right? The only thing that's different about all these different religions, Jesus died. For his people. All these people are giving, giving, giving, giving, giving, giving, giving, never getting, but Christianity will, you give, give, give, give, give, and you're getting, getting, getting, getting, getting. But if Jesus died, if he rose again, since he's alive, right? He's alive. Every other religion, the gods are dead. Right. They're all dead. Everything, if you look at any religion that there is, the god has died. They died. In some way, shape, or form, they're dead. They're no longer here. But Jesus is living, alive, breathing, like he lives in the spirit, you know what I'm saying? Air, wind, water, like, you can feel the love, you know what I'm saying? Period. I feel it 100%. That's a really good way to think about it. The only religion where the god is alive. Only, okay. I'm going to quote that, that's a good one. I like that. I feel like that was pretty much, you covered pretty much all of it. Do you have anything else you'd like to share? Um. Any insights? Nah. Comments, questions, concerns? Other than, like, fool me, my name's Sean. Sean Davis, fool me. Born and raised in New Jersey. Oh yeah, you can check out his Instagram, sfit2fat. S. So, sfit2fat. 2 is in the number. Yup. On the gram. A little s, fool me. Check me out. I got little reels, my weight loss, whatever. Um, yeah. 10 out of 10. Great, so thank you for going on and sharing your story. Thank you for allowing me. Giving us some insight into your life. It was very interesting. I'm glad I got to hear it. And a more in-depth version than I ever would have heard in the church, probably. Yeah. So, 10 out of 10. They were only going to give me, like, 15 minutes, which is alright. I would have just had to do a very mild, like, less hefty version. But I feel like this amount of time is perfect. Like an hour, hour and a half. Yeah, I want to reach an hour and a half. Yeah. Yeah. I feel like this is very good. I feel like this is a healthy conversation. It's always good to talk about what you've been through. Right. And talking about something is how you get over something or break through new boundaries and walls. And, like, how you make the next steps in life is talking about the problems you've had and how you move past them. Acknowledging the issues, acknowledging an issue is how you defeat that issue. Period. And when you're an NFO player, shoot out at Positively Podcast. We were the ones who discovered you. NFO Techno. Alright. Bye, guys. Bye. Goodbye.