Tea with D ep 1

The speaker introduces a new podcast and talks about their recent eye exam. They mention that their vision has changed since turning 40 and they are getting new glasses with progressive lenses. They also discuss their mental health disorders, including bipolar II, ADHD, PTSD, and anxiety, and how they recently had a breakdown that led to a good cry and much-needed sleep. They express gratitude for their supportive children and offer resources and support for others dealing with mental health issues. Overall, the speaker shares their personal experiences and aims to raise awareness and provide assistance to those in need. Good evening everyone, this is T with D, a pilot podcast I'm trying out, I'm trying out this software. I'm new to this, so please bear with me. I hope you can hear me loud and clear. But yeah, I just, we'll talk about today, I had my eye exam today, so six years ago, my left eye, I had pressure behind it and had to do different tests and whatnot. Anyways, I'm pleased to say that there's no more pressure behind my left eye, which is really good. But something I've been saying for the last four years, since I've turned, well I'm 44 now, but ever since I turned 40, things have just changed. And it seems to be your eyes do change when you're in your 40s, and so on. So now, I'm just waiting for everything to get done, my glasses, and I'm having progressive lenses, instead of having the bifocal line in between, it's blended into the lens. So yeah, it's the joyfulness of being 44 and your body changes, and I need to see, because I'm having a hard time looking at my prescription bottles and fine print and whatnot and so forth. Which has been really awkward for me, because I've always had 20-20 vision, I've always had good vision when I was younger, but I'm not young anymore, right? I'm 44. Not that I'm old, but I'm getting there. My check box, you know, the ages, I'm 19 at this age, or 35-40, I'm 40-45 now. So, I'm just here to chit-chat and talk about myself and what I'm going through and what I've been through, and I'm always open for suggestions or comments, or if a specific topic you want to talk about, something in your life, or something you heard on the radio, something funny or serious, bring awareness. I'm a big mental health advocate, as I deal with my own mental health disorders and issues. I'm not shy about it. I am bipolar II, ADHD, PTSD, and trauma. They call it generalized anxiety, but I call it high-extreme anxiety for myself, because it gets really intense to the point of glorophobia, which in turn means I have a hard time leaving my apartment. Now, with that being said, a couple weeks ago, I had a breakdown, which really was a good thing, because that breakdown was a breakthrough. I just couldn't stop crying. Mind you, I stayed up for 19-plus hours watching the last season of This Is Us, season 6, and I knew it would be a trigger for me, just didn't realize how much of a trigger, and not having proper sleep, which someone in my case with bipolar and mood disorders and depression and anxiety, we need as much sleep as we can get, proper sleep. It's healthy for us. It's its own form of medication, right? So anyhow, I had a crying fast, and it's weird, because my anxiety didn't get the best of me, and the whole time I was kind of waiting for it to trigger. Instead, I actually felt relief. I haven't cried like that, and I couldn't tell you in how long, years, but it was well-needed. And then that weekend, I just slept pretty much the whole weekend. My youngest child, B, she stayed close to me and kept an eye on me, made sure I took my meds and drinking my water, having food to eat, and being a great daughter and taking care of me, as all my kids have in some way or form. I have four kids, ages 19 to 26. I have a granddaughter. And this is me. This podcast, I mean, trial and error. I've never done this before. Excuse me. It's something I've been wanting to do for a very, very long time. 10, 15 years ago, you couldn't shut me up. I was a very fast talker. Now that I'm in my 40s, I was diagnosed with my mental health disorders when I was 30, but it's more since I've turned 40 and on, I've understood it more, and I've gone through the last three to four years have been the hardest years, up until like right now, even to present time, than I can remember other episodes in the past. I do seek professional help, and I'm on medication, and I have my talk therapies, and I try to get my talk therapies when they come available, CBT and different things. But I just want you to know that I'm an advocate for myself, and for those who are afraid to talk about it or don't know how to talk about it, I'm willing to give resources, like information that's been given to me to help others. So if there's something you're curious about, let me know, and I'll do my best to help you in any which way I can, even just a listening ear. 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